It was my first time.
Nervous I was like a kid – cold hands, wrenching stomach and sweaty forehead.
He handed me his ‘God’. I looked at his eyes – still like water, sparkling and constant. Those stillness of his eyes gave me confidence.
I took it from him – his God. My shaky hands were ready now.
I could feel inside me the leashed snake moving its tail. Sleaky – looking for something, searching.
And I did it. His God was inside me.
Those snake eyes were looking at me, straight and without any confusion. I knew I was the target. The slow sleaky snake was unleashed now. It made its move. Its pace increased. It came closer and closer and closer and finally did it.
I was inside.
And there I found solace…